Last night while I was putting Milo to sleep, he did what he almost always does and he put his arms around my neck and said "I want to hold you mama!" I swear he is the best hugger, holder of any three year old I've ever seen. He really holds on and it almost feels like he's trying to take care of you. He often puts your head on his shoulder. All of a sudden last night, it hit me so hard, like a punch to the gut, that he wasn't going to do this forever. That someday, nothing like this would be happening with him. That he'd be too big, or too cool, or it'd be inappropriate because of his age. (as a mom, I now think that's totally DUMB! :) )
This seriously hit me in a way that crushed me. But because of that crushing realization, I enjoyed the moment that much more. Let's be honest, I cried a little, but I also enjoyed staying in his embrace that much longer and relished in the moment. It also made me think once again about how important it is to have all of these little moments that I love so much captured. We have booked a photographer to document us, but she isn't coming until the spring. Last night it was too dark to take a photo, but I am going to share this one with you of a little less sleepy, but similar embrace.
This is one of my selfie Moments of Motherhood.